Arguing with God

Someone said that “the more he understands the human race, the more he loves his dog.”  To some extent I find this statement somehow true. 

For instance the other day I received an email that stirred my heart into a-boiling.  For some reason, this person was harsh and using an angry tone, berating me with words like: “you should know about how to do your job!”  Yeah right, like I don’t??  (Did I just tell you that I finished my Masters’ last year?).  I felt the usual blood turmoil slowly rising up to my face; my fingers were ready to snap on the computer’s key board, my eyes darting across the monitor in anger and my brain was trying to figure out whether what kind of animal I should address him (yeah, that bad J

Then a still small voice came to me which changed all that. 

You see, when this happens people call it with different names, some call it your conscience, some say it’s their own voice, but to me personally I know it is God speaking to my stubborn heart; it is the same One who said; “I am the Shepherd, you are the sheep, and my sheep knows my voice and when I call them they listen.”

The next few minutes I found myself having back-and-forth arguments with Him:

Me:  In the first place I don’t even want to be here and do this job.  Why did you ever put me here?

The Voice:  You said you want to do My will and not yours…

Me:  Everything seems to be going wrong!  I’m not even paid well and now this??

The Voice:  You are looking too far ahead.  You worry too much.  You know you can trust me.  When I say “I will take care of you, I will!”  Believe that!

Me:  So what do You want me to do with this guy?  Just let him have his way?

The Voice:  What did I do to my accusers?  First of all, you need to have a Spirit of forgiveness in your heart even as I have forgiven you – forgive him!  Its not about you, its about Me – always remember that!  Then I will give you something that this world cannot give you; peace of mind and heart.

Me:  But…

The Voice:  No buts, Jane…and also, you need to do something with your pride.  Surrender it to me and I will give you a Spirit of humility.

For the first time I was lost for words; and I can feel my mind and body responding to Him.  Slowly and with less effort I responded to the person the way that God wanted me to. 

Someone said; “As much as possible if you can, live peaceably with all men” Impossible! but guess what, with God, all things are possible.